Hello again people who like to read about my student breakdowns! I hope January has been treating you guys well. Me, on the other hand, I’ve been (you’ve guessed it) quite stressed. I don’t know about anyone else, but for me, IT’S EXAM SEASON RIGHT NOW AND I AM ON THE VERGE OF A MELTDOWN. But other than that January has been pretty great so far!
I’m unsure about other schools’ exam schedules but my first semester ends in January and lucky for me, final exams come with it! Now you might think, “oh, it’s only the first semester, you don’t even have to take that many tests!” OH REALLY? I’m sorry but I was not one of those fortunate people to have two easy, relaxing classes (if they even exist). Because the world loves me, as of right now, I’m studying for French social studies, French math and AP science. Every single person who I’ve told what my classes are this term has given me their deepest condolences. “Sigh, nobody deserves this,” they’d say. Sure, maybe for some of you, those three classes together are practically a walk in the park. But for me, it’s nowhere near a walk in the park. It’s more like a riding a bike. But the bike is on fire. And the ground is on fire. And everything is on fire. 🙂
I make jokes to conceal the fact that I am constantly screaming on the inside. There is just so much to learn! So much to remember! And the exam is worth around 25% of the final grade so if I do bad on it, I can start writing my will now. I have so many notes to review, so many pages to read! Boy, I’m going to have a blast in college, aren’t I? I’ve forgotten ALL about chemistry and biology! Sorry, but what even is an acid? What even is a plant?? Not to mention, I have to independently learn about climate?? What even is climate?? Wind currents and albedos?? I mean, I read the textbook and I understand the words. I just don’t understand the words together.
Not to mention the rest of science! What do you mean I have to memorize all the parts of the microscope?? WHY MUST I DO THAT?? Chemistry is alright and biology makes my brain hurt, but physics, OH, physics. If physics were a person, I’d leave them on read 24/7. Chemistry was kind, biology was tolerable. Physics on the other hand… Let’s just say tears were shed for that subject.
Science? More like SciOHMYGODNOence. Did I mention that my science exam is tomorrow?? It is! 78 points total and 30% of my final grade! How joyous! Excuse me while I go hide in my closet and cry. But it’s fine. It’s just that I’ve gotten no sleep because I’ve been staying up trying to make sense of my notes while remembering how a microscope works. And that I’m stressed all the time. And that I have no time for anything else yet I always find time to procrastinate until 11:59 at night. It’s fine. All good. Totally not crying inside.
And don’t even GET me started on social studies. That’s gonna be a no from me, it’s not happening. I CAN’T SOCIAL STUDIES FOR THE LIFE OF ME. I’d tell you what I’m learning except that I honestly don’t know. I have no clue how I’m going to handle social (WHICH IS ON MONDAY BY THE WAY), so in the meantime, if you could please keep me in your prayers, that would be amazing, thanks. At 11:11, wish that I will pass social. When an eyelash falls off, wish that I will pass social and blow it away. Wish that I pass social as your birthday wish. Wish that I pass social and throw a coin in a fountain. It’s much appreciated.
I can’t wait to come home after my last exam and literally do nothing except watch Netflix for the rest of day. That’s the dream that motivates me to get through these tests. Whoever is reading this, and whether or not you have exams this month, I believe in you. If I can do well in math without doing any of the homework, you can ace your finals. You’ve got this, I’ve got this, and we’ll see each other on the other side. Good luck my friends, may you all get 90% or above.
